Post 29 – To the Woman I Used to Be

I never wanted another way to live because I didn’t know it was possible.

I never wanted to believe there was someone out there I could trust.

I never wanted close friends because I thought people would only hurt me.

I never wanted to be honest because honesty meant looking at my soul and facing the damage I had done.

I never wanted a real relationship because that meant being vulnerable, and vulnerability felt dangerous.

I never wanted to ask for help because I believed I had to figure everything out on my own.

I never wanted to slow down because if I sat still, I might have to feel.

What she never understood was that what she wanted most was freedom.

Freedom from fear.

Freedom from shame.

Freedom from the lies she told herself.

Freedom from the constant need to escape.

She thought she was fighting for survival, but she was really fighting for a life she couldn't yet imagine.

She had to lose everything to become me.

She had to walk through heartbreak, fear, and desperation to become me.

She had to make every choice she made, even the painful ones, to become the woman writing these words today.

The woman I used to be would never believe the life I live now.

She would never believe that peace could replace chaos.

She would never believe that honesty could replace secrets.

She would never believe that trust could replace fear.

She would never believe that one day she would wake up grateful to be exactly who she is.

If you had told me years ago that I would become even half the woman I am today, I would have laughed, called you crazy, and run the other direction.

Yet here I am.

A woman who can sit quietly with her thoughts.

A woman who no longer has to pretend to be someone she isn't.

A woman who has learned that strength isn't found in building walls, but in having the courage to take them down.

A woman who has learned that healing is possible.

A woman who has learned that freedom is real.

To the woman I used to be, thank you for not giving up, even when you didn't know there was another way.

And to the woman I am today, thank you for continuing to grow, heal, and choose this life every single day.

You are everything she was searching for. ❤️

Have you ever looked back at the person you used to be and realized they would never believe the life you're living today?

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